Trigger point
Across the globe, how many can define simplicity in love? "Among other things/times in my life,There was a point I realised how little or insignificant I meant to you as compared to her" Being impossible and saying you can't takes just a few seconds,but probably if you have more time to ponder about I've said and search your heart,think about whether you should continue your relationship,before we drag this further and increase the intensity of hurt.Nothing is complicated neither am I.


So many thoughts, so many words, nouns, adjectives, voices, images in my head. I almost didn’t know where to start to handle this mess again. I guess i have to start somewhere. A full stop to all the nonsense, I need someone to be there too. He shall only love who I am and no one else.It isn't hard to ask. I am going to start by saying I am starting my solitude starting from today,beside nothing really bother or needs my attention now.I will still do coffee,sugar rush but definitely no alcohol, no clubs, no pubs or late night out. Keep the shopping to the minimum too. What else is left to do? What is left is gym, home, school. My phone screwed up on me too ,leaving me alone in my world yet again. I should be getting used to this kind of life, after a year he left. That was the biggest blow in my life, yet I managed to overcome it by myself and with a group of close friends. They knew about what happened.I never blame or wanted to blame after all.That's life! FML please. Those memories that were so precious, pictures that says everything that we've been through. It's FINALLY OVER now, I guess. He kept away, while I think It's about time I should, Since he doesn't even bothered or cares as much. He said promises are meant to be broken. TRUE. I chose to keep it the other way.Yearning & desire are a part and hassle of which we need to go through.Coming back over and over again, just wears me out sometime, I never failed to cry when I recalled about the things we've been through, It wasn't a easy one. We had a real tough one indeed.Overtime, It made me realize what I want. I want a man that would defend me, hold my hand, tell me I am the woman that he has been looking for. I want the man to tell me he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. I need a man that loves children. I want a man that still wants to see my face the first thing in the morning, he craves waking up next to me every morning. I need a humble and ambitious man. He would tell me that he loves me everyday before he goes to work. My heart will still flutter every time I hear his keys in the door. I need a man that would kiss me on the forehead every night before he sleeps.
I believe in true love. I still believe. I think if you don’t believe, it will never happen. I believe true love knows no boundaries. I believe that love conquers any obstacle it may face, if there is. I believe one day, I will know when I meet the right guy. That is when nothing else matters, nothing at all.
“this is how love should be: it is that simple” ?
I said, “lying in bed, hand in hand.
she said: “Can we stay like this forever?”
he said: “Yes.”
he then plants a kiss on her forehead.
they fell asleep together.”
That happened to me. I had that once. I was very lucky, lucky that i got that short term happiness. (short- lived but plentiful) I am not complicated when it comes to love, i would think. I think i am a fool for love. Its a good thing i have a very strong mother who taught me to never give my heart to a man. It is never a good thing to love someone too much, it never works. That is to say, never put all your eggs in one basket. Put the eggs one by one, when you sense something wrong, retreat and take the eggs back. then eventually move on.





I need to remember the life i had before he was in my life, before he swept me off my feet, before he promised me the things he said he would do. After having a “routine” for the months, its hard to get back, habits and reliance were developed, i would need to get it out of my system. Everywhere i go, everything i do, it brings much sadness because every little thing reminds me of him.The late night craze,cooking,movie, falling asleep in each other arms all the small little details we do ever since we got tgt or starting to start a relationship. I will never be the same person that i was. I know women are not suppose to analyze the little things that men do, but what if he said and made me feel like the happiest woman alive? what if he told me he wanted to be with me for the rest of our lives. what if he said things i never thought that i would hear? If none of this happened,I probably wouldn’t be this upset. I said “probably”. But i would never know anyway.
I will miss him. I will miss being with him. But if you do not wish to commit and be freaking serious, don’t be with me. Don’t. Nothing will come out of it. Remember “He’s just not that into you”?




P.S: I hope you are happy and I wish nothing but the best for you. I love you, darling.

Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you.RE:Someone may have stolen your dream when it was young and fresh and you were innocent. Anger is natural. Grief is appropriate. Healing is mandatory. Restoration is possible.

Trigger point
Across the globe, how many can define simplicity in love? "Among other things/times in my life,There was a point I realised how little or insignificant I meant to you as compared to her" Being impossible and saying you can't takes just a few seconds,but probably if you have more time to ponder about I've said and search your heart,think about whether you should continue your relationship,before we drag this further and increase the intensity of hurt.Nothing is complicated neither am I.


So many thoughts, so many words, nouns, adjectives, voices, images in my head. I almost didn’t know where to start to handle this mess again. I guess i have to start somewhere. A full stop to all the nonsense, I need someone to be there too. He shall only love who I am and no one else.It isn't hard to ask. I am going to start by saying I am starting my solitude starting from today,beside nothing really bother or needs my attention now.I will still do coffee,sugar rush but definitely no alcohol, no clubs, no pubs or late night out. Keep the shopping to the minimum too. What else is left to do? What is left is gym, home, school. My phone screwed up on me too ,leaving me alone in my world yet again. I should be getting used to this kind of life, after a year he left. That was the biggest blow in my life, yet I managed to overcome it by myself and with a group of close friends. They knew about what happened.I never blame or wanted to blame after all.That's life! FML please. Those memories that were so precious, pictures that says everything that we've been through. It's FINALLY OVER now, I guess. He kept away, while I think It's about time I should, Since he doesn't even bothered or cares as much. He said promises are meant to be broken. TRUE. I chose to keep it the other way.Yearning & desire are a part and hassle of which we need to go through.Coming back over and over again, just wears me out sometime, I never failed to cry when I recalled about the things we've been through, It wasn't a easy one. We had a real tough one indeed.Overtime, It made me realize what I want. I want a man that would defend me, hold my hand, tell me I am the woman that he has been looking for. I want the man to tell me he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. I need a man that loves children. I want a man that still wants to see my face the first thing in the morning, he craves waking up next to me every morning. I need a humble and ambitious man. He would tell me that he loves me everyday before he goes to work. My heart will still flutter every time I hear his keys in the door. I need a man that would kiss me on the forehead every night before he sleeps.
I believe in true love. I still believe. I think if you don’t believe, it will never happen. I believe true love knows no boundaries. I believe that love conquers any obstacle it may face, if there is. I believe one day, I will know when I meet the right guy. That is when nothing else matters, nothing at all.
“this is how love should be: it is that simple” ?
I said, “lying in bed, hand in hand.
she said: “Can we stay like this forever?”
he said: “Yes.”
he then plants a kiss on her forehead.
they fell asleep together.”
That happened to me. I had that once. I was very lucky, lucky that i got that short term happiness. (short- lived but plentiful) I am not complicated when it comes to love, i would think. I think i am a fool for love. Its a good thing i have a very strong mother who taught me to never give my heart to a man. It is never a good thing to love someone too much, it never works. That is to say, never put all your eggs in one basket. Put the eggs one by one, when you sense something wrong, retreat and take the eggs back. then eventually move on.





I need to remember the life i had before he was in my life, before he swept me off my feet, before he promised me the things he said he would do. After having a “routine” for the months, its hard to get back, habits and reliance were developed, i would need to get it out of my system. Everywhere i go, everything i do, it brings much sadness because every little thing reminds me of him.The late night craze,cooking,movie, falling asleep in each other arms all the small little details we do ever since we got tgt or starting to start a relationship. I will never be the same person that i was. I know women are not suppose to analyze the little things that men do, but what if he said and made me feel like the happiest woman alive? what if he told me he wanted to be with me for the rest of our lives. what if he said things i never thought that i would hear? If none of this happened,I probably wouldn’t be this upset. I said “probably”. But i would never know anyway.
I will miss him. I will miss being with him. But if you do not wish to commit and be freaking serious, don’t be with me. Don’t. Nothing will come out of it. Remember “He’s just not that into you”?




P.S: I hope you are happy and I wish nothing but the best for you. I love you, darling.