Never a 1 but starting with a 0 (zero)
Saturday, April 24, 2010 7:00 AM
NAIVE? hahhaha! everyone has it's fair share of experience in time. Ranting here calms me down? Well, a bottle of white wine beside me calling me out. I chose to be ALONE. Maybe it will be better...A total let down of plan. I don Blame... There's a pharse saying, the higher you place your hopes , the GREATER you will fall eventually. That's exactly true! Everyone has moved on, i have already moved on, but life can be such a joke that, sometime things will be back to where it was again... Just that you'll be in differnt position now... TRIED? Told myself millions of times NOT to be so vulnerable and (gasp!) wait for his text.
“Because you’re hoping you’re wrong. And every time she does something that tells you she’s no good, you ignore it. And every time she comes through and suprises you, she wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself, that she’s not for you.“
“I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn’t know you had inside you. And it doesn’t matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends… you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he’ll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you’ll go somewhere new. And you’ll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.”
J- Words I Couldn't Say....Least it makes me feels so much better after listening to it for zillion of times .
P.S ___We were both young when I first saw you ,I close my eyes and the flashback starts flowing into my mind. ( happy birthday! )
“Because you’re hoping you’re wrong. And every time she does something that tells you she’s no good, you ignore it. And every time she comes through and suprises you, she wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself, that she’s not for you.“
“I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn’t know you had inside you. And it doesn’t matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends… you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he’ll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you’ll go somewhere new. And you’ll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.”
J- Words I Couldn't Say....Least it makes me feels so much better after listening to it for zillion of times .
P.S ___We were both young when I first saw you ,I close my eyes and the flashback starts flowing into my mind. ( happy birthday! )