I've been staring at my laptop screen for 20 minutes.I have no clue where ii should start.
Received tons of missed calls from various friends and unknown people,after I told some of my close friends that ii'm having some problem now and was feeling rather down?Those countless of missed calls and msgs flooded my phone.I don't feel like talking to anyone at that point of time.I knew ii was acting very irresponsible by not answering all those msgs and calls from those people that actually cares for me.My parents know nothing about what happened recently,ii don't wish them to worry about me.I'm sure ii am old enough to think and solve this by myself.I need to grow up!
After a serial of missed calls,msgs and offline msgs on msn from *him,ii managed to pull myself up and picked up his call.I had been crying since ii woke up after meeting hwee sim for a talk.I felt soo apologetic to sim.she still managed to come down last minute to yishun to meet me,even through she's with her bf.
So back to *him.Well ii met him later in the night.He was pretty anxious over what really happened to me.He sounds very concern over the phone,we talked for quite awhile but most of time ii was quiet.I kept crying,ii hate myself for this.I tried to stop my tear gland from secreting anymore tears.I knew that both of my eyes are swollen and sore-red by this time,Since ii had been crying for the past two and a half hrs.As countless of thought came flooding into my tiny brain,the more ii got worked up.I'm scared ii guessed,thus ii cried like a helpless baby.He assured me that ii'll be fine as he's rushing over to my place now.I couldn't meet him up immediatly after he reached my doorsteps,as my dad was still awake at that point of time.waited for nearly two and a half hrs before ii finally got to meet him?Well he was soo scared to be alone all the while as he was waiting for meat the stairsway.He kept saying he's scared,cold while ii was on the phone with him all this while.Took a cab down to balestier straight after we met up.We started drinking at around two plus in the morning till five going to six?Can't remembered as ii was dead drunk?both of us finisheda bottle of chivas.Damn hardcore.My gastric acted up,as ii had nothing for the whole day and ii went for heavy drinking.I had a few bites of chocolate through.It doesn't help much.The only thing ii could remembered clearly was my SWOLLEN ,SORE-RED eyes! Everyone looked at me as if i'm a freaking EMO freak.ASS!I'm drowning myself with liquor.I know ii'm doing harm to my body,but ii'm just trying to numb myself from all this pain.
All this ended after ii realised i'm home when ii woke up?I tried to recall what happened earlier on? But not a single trace of memories are found.The next moment ii knew was,when ii saw tingle msg!DAMN!I'm suppose to meet him at eleven at YCK train station to go back to school together to submit some academic related paperwork.I am damn late for all ii know.I tried to rush out after ii had washed up.But my limbs are behaving very weird.Slow and retarded.Was late for more than an hr!Felt truly SORRY about it.Made it just in time to submit our forms to mr robert before he left for good.

Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you.RE:Someone may have stolen your dream when it was young and fresh and you were innocent. Anger is natural. Grief is appropriate. Healing is mandatory. Restoration is possible.

I've been staring at my laptop screen for 20 minutes.I have no clue where ii should start.
Received tons of missed calls from various friends and unknown people,after I told some of my close friends that ii'm having some problem now and was feeling rather down?Those countless of missed calls and msgs flooded my phone.I don't feel like talking to anyone at that point of time.I knew ii was acting very irresponsible by not answering all those msgs and calls from those people that actually cares for me.My parents know nothing about what happened recently,ii don't wish them to worry about me.I'm sure ii am old enough to think and solve this by myself.I need to grow up!
After a serial of missed calls,msgs and offline msgs on msn from *him,ii managed to pull myself up and picked up his call.I had been crying since ii woke up after meeting hwee sim for a talk.I felt soo apologetic to sim.she still managed to come down last minute to yishun to meet me,even through she's with her bf.
So back to *him.Well ii met him later in the night.He was pretty anxious over what really happened to me.He sounds very concern over the phone,we talked for quite awhile but most of time ii was quiet.I kept crying,ii hate myself for this.I tried to stop my tear gland from secreting anymore tears.I knew that both of my eyes are swollen and sore-red by this time,Since ii had been crying for the past two and a half hrs.As countless of thought came flooding into my tiny brain,the more ii got worked up.I'm scared ii guessed,thus ii cried like a helpless baby.He assured me that ii'll be fine as he's rushing over to my place now.I couldn't meet him up immediatly after he reached my doorsteps,as my dad was still awake at that point of time.waited for nearly two and a half hrs before ii finally got to meet him?Well he was soo scared to be alone all the while as he was waiting for meat the stairsway.He kept saying he's scared,cold while ii was on the phone with him all this while.Took a cab down to balestier straight after we met up.We started drinking at around two plus in the morning till five going to six?Can't remembered as ii was dead drunk?both of us finisheda bottle of chivas.Damn hardcore.My gastric acted up,as ii had nothing for the whole day and ii went for heavy drinking.I had a few bites of chocolate through.It doesn't help much.The only thing ii could remembered clearly was my SWOLLEN ,SORE-RED eyes! Everyone looked at me as if i'm a freaking EMO freak.ASS!I'm drowning myself with liquor.I know ii'm doing harm to my body,but ii'm just trying to numb myself from all this pain.
All this ended after ii realised i'm home when ii woke up?I tried to recall what happened earlier on? But not a single trace of memories are found.The next moment ii knew was,when ii saw tingle msg!DAMN!I'm suppose to meet him at eleven at YCK train station to go back to school together to submit some academic related paperwork.I am damn late for all ii know.I tried to rush out after ii had washed up.But my limbs are behaving very weird.Slow and retarded.Was late for more than an hr!Felt truly SORRY about it.Made it just in time to submit our forms to mr robert before he left for good.