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NO LIFE
Friday, September 17, 2010 7:07 AM

FIRST WEEK ATTACHMENT CAN BE SUCH A BITCH!!! GOSH! THANKS FOR THE TIME SPENT AFTER MY WORK WITH FRIENDS , THAT SAVED MY LIFE ALOT..MISS YOU GUYS! OK THERE'S WORK TMR.MONDAY BLUES!!! GRR!!!


check back soon! Gonna party! =)



It's like a martini to me
Thursday, August 12, 2010 1:12 PM
I snap, whose next?
Life's pretty much packed with lots of activities! Being meeting up with friends and knowing MORE friends at the same time =) LOVE it . I don't know what I would have been without Friends? They took up the better wounded part of me, making me feel loved =) haha! Well Nevertheless, today met up with our usual clique to celebrate POST- Koon's birthday =) Had a GReat time with the boys and girls!!! We manage to finish the BIG CHOCO CAKE!!! Credits to THE two biggest losers.... KOON,THEON =)) Welll our pretty birthday girl had a hell lot of fun..The noise and the candid camwhore nearly brought the whole MARCHE down! haha! Koon's received a cute balloon from the guys? I learnt a new dialet today! Something not worth mentioning abt in causal talk! Thanks to sim and theon, I was laughing till my stomach cramp =( Both of them are super hilarious! hahaha! Shit face theon! haaah!!

After dinner, theon had to leave ,because his mum ordered him to be home by TEN??? to wash his clothes?lol! Apparently his maid had a good life living off his family, I guess?Theon had to wash his clothes himself?Proud of him...Cos I don't normally wash my clothes myself, either I dumper all of it to the washing machine and leave it for my mum or I don even bother at all,after constant Nagging from my parents. That explain how a lazy ass I'm =) Back to cine, which the guys did something which they should feel guilty abt!!! TSK TSK!!! Coincidentally met karyin at cine too =) WE did something damn FUN and daring! Our drty little secret!! Gonna Ask for more of it with those people !!! =)I really enjoyed myself with their company over the night =)
When shall be the next time we're gonna meet up again??

P.s to marcus! Sorry to turn down your overseas trip proposal.... I know you put alot of effort in organising something like this. Hmm.. welll next time alright! Pretty soon!After we graduate?? hahaha! NOt to forget the overseas trip that the GINNA had planned, way before our final sec sch days? hahah! NOw I can hardly wait to be away form this tiny red dot in a few days time with my SZE darling =))) Love you babe!!! hahaha!


Whenever I least expected to receive news from you, you always Showed up in certain ways?? I truly misss you a few times back in the night! I teared thinking through the night while i'm outside searching for remedies that might numb the memories that had held me back strong all these while. Wondered what are you doing?? What you might do if you were to know that I'm sick?What I want was just a 100% heart , not just more than the other. Knowing how impt I mean to you now, means ALOT to me.My friends told me to stand strong toward what I had preach, but somehow the connection we shared was somehow .....


MAYBE you're JUST NOT THAT INTO ME =) The name we once used to address one another seems so far away now. It belong to someone else now, hoping one day you would be calling me that from afar =))) Till then party never stops!!! =)


TOWN! TMR =))) GOODNIGHT! PEEPS I NEED SOME GOOD SLEEP NOW!



P.S pics will be up pretty soon once i'm FREE=))) Hope koon's will love the present from us =) love you babe!



HAPPY 19TH KEE KOON =))
Thursday, August 5, 2010 1:02 AM
HAPPY 19TH TO KEE KOON!!! Love you very much! X.O.X.O
We have definitely come a LONG way in our Friendship.Half of my childhood memories lies with you and the ginnas.
I will never forget the times we shared together.LOVE,PATIENT,UNDERSTANDING bounded us together all this while.
Really appreciate your effort in this friendship that we shared. Although all of us came from different background we managed to put together this friendship ( GINNAS).
In the years to come when we become adults, we will create even more wonderful, amazing memories with each another.Our life journey will never cease to end without each another. Thanks for staying put with all our nonsense and standing by us no matter what. No matter what the world may become, I always know that you girls will always be by my side, pulling me or us through any ordeal that may come our way.Nothing will break this chain of love friendship between us. On a side note, we shall continue to build our faith and trust in each another even stronger =))




P.S : I LOVE YOU BABE!
Can't wait to see you next coming Thursday!!!



Random!!!
Thursday, July 29, 2010 5:58 PM

lalallalala!!!! I LOVE SZE YIJUN! hahaha! More pictures upload soon about our nonsense! Back to my report now! Shit~Need a short getaway soon! We be having fun in less than a month honey! love you =)))



Ain't No sunshine
9:01 AM
Still up at this hour of the day...I'm Tired after a few days of mugging of Don know what?I don know what the hell I was busy with?I just seems so tired these few days..I feel like running away to a place where there's nothing but me alone. I need some peace.Hate going out these few days in the night, cos I'm VERY LAZY in dolling up myself to get my ass off my bed and out into the COLD HARD WORLD. Nevertheless, My friends never failed to coax me out eventually.ARGH! I need more self-restraint. HAHAHA!
Woke up the next morning, had a HOT shower and back into my room.Checked my phone,10
msges.One of which, which I didn't expect that HE would reply,replied this time.He would always answer an indefinites answer whenever I asked him THAT question,but surprisingly HE gave me an definite answer yesterday.I was over the mood when I saw the replied,that somehow made my day in the PAST,but NOT now. I don know how I should react or DO, since nothing can be done now.That's what he thought of. Well, everything takes two hands to clap isn't it?
It hurts, hurts so bad. But I had to leave, I didn’t have the choice. What I do have left is memories, beautiful memories. I just hope the tears will stop soon,whenever I thought of what we had in the past. Dealing with this myself is too difficult to handle,friends will always be there.Same goes for all those music and alcohol! Once in awhile, I need some numb-ing sessions.
I never told him how I really felt. When I am with him, something felt really right. What I did say just now was what I could manage to squeeze out. I don’t know if this is considered naïve, I believed every word he said. And I believe he really felt this way. Then again, same thing, you just don’t love me enough to want to want me. If you love me enough, nothing is going to stop you. You just love some things about me, you just like us, you just thought about you.This will only hurt for a short period of time, this will all go away. What if I told you I know for sure I want to spend the rest of my life with you? Of course I could never mutter the words out loud. Are you kidding. Life goes on.
Maybe I should just sleep, that’s how I dealt with this situation after all. We’ll see what the situation is like tomorrow. I hope my brain will get the short term memory mechanism kicking in soon, because every time I close my eyes, all I see is him,memories we had. My eyes are tired. Its time to put the phone down. Time for a new day. A new start. A new adventure that I have to embark regardless =)))
P.S : One day You will understand eventually, How impt I'm in your life.The choice that you and I made have left us with regrets and unbearable pain in the time yet to come.Hope all of these will go away.I left you with choice, the day I never forget.Head back and turn around,19/10. Swept me off my feet and unlocked the icy cold harden heart of mine again.say every words that meant every thing in the bottom of your heart to me.





Only Love
4:41 AM
2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me


But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do



In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough If we learn to trust


But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do



I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye


But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do



P.s:That's something only love can do



Downfall
Wednesday, July 28, 2010 5:21 AM
Trigger point
Across the globe, how many can define simplicity in love? "Among other things/times in my life,There was a point I realised how little or insignificant I meant to you as compared to her" Being impossible and saying you can't takes just a few seconds,but probably if you have more time to ponder about I've said and search your heart,think about whether you should continue your relationship,before we drag this further and increase the intensity of hurt.Nothing is complicated neither am I.


So many thoughts, so many words, nouns, adjectives, voices, images in my head. I almost didn’t know where to start to handle this mess again. I guess i have to start somewhere. A full stop to all the nonsense, I need someone to be there too. He shall only love who I am and no one else.It isn't hard to ask. I am going to start by saying I am starting my solitude starting from today,beside nothing really bother or needs my attention now.I will still do coffee,sugar rush but definitely no alcohol, no clubs, no pubs or late night out. Keep the shopping to the minimum too. What else is left to do? What is left is gym, home, school. My phone screwed up on me too ,leaving me alone in my world yet again. I should be getting used to this kind of life, after a year he left. That was the biggest blow in my life, yet I managed to overcome it by myself and with a group of close friends. They knew about what happened.I never blame or wanted to blame after all.That's life! FML please. Those memories that were so precious, pictures that says everything that we've been through. It's FINALLY OVER now, I guess. He kept away, while I think It's about time I should, Since he doesn't even bothered or cares as much. He said promises are meant to be broken. TRUE. I chose to keep it the other way.Yearning & desire are a part and hassle of which we need to go through.Coming back over and over again, just wears me out sometime, I never failed to cry when I recalled about the things we've been through, It wasn't a easy one. We had a real tough one indeed.Overtime, It made me realize what I want. I want a man that would defend me, hold my hand, tell me I am the woman that he has been looking for. I want the man to tell me he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. I need a man that loves children. I want a man that still wants to see my face the first thing in the morning, he craves waking up next to me every morning. I need a humble and ambitious man. He would tell me that he loves me everyday before he goes to work. My heart will still flutter every time I hear his keys in the door. I need a man that would kiss me on the forehead every night before he sleeps.
I believe in true love. I still believe. I think if you don’t believe, it will never happen. I believe true love knows no boundaries. I believe that love conquers any obstacle it may face, if there is. I believe one day, I will know when I meet the right guy. That is when nothing else matters, nothing at all.
“this is how love should be: it is that simple” ?
I said, “lying in bed, hand in hand.
she said: “Can we stay like this forever?”
he said: “Yes.”
he then plants a kiss on her forehead.
they fell asleep together.”
That happened to me. I had that once. I was very lucky, lucky that i got that short term happiness. (short- lived but plentiful) I am not complicated when it comes to love, i would think. I think i am a fool for love. Its a good thing i have a very strong mother who taught me to never give my heart to a man. It is never a good thing to love someone too much, it never works. That is to say, never put all your eggs in one basket. Put the eggs one by one, when you sense something wrong, retreat and take the eggs back. then eventually move on.





I need to remember the life i had before he was in my life, before he swept me off my feet, before he promised me the things he said he would do. After having a “routine” for the months, its hard to get back, habits and reliance were developed, i would need to get it out of my system. Everywhere i go, everything i do, it brings much sadness because every little thing reminds me of him.The late night craze,cooking,movie, falling asleep in each other arms all the small little details we do ever since we got tgt or starting to start a relationship. I will never be the same person that i was. I know women are not suppose to analyze the little things that men do, but what if he said and made me feel like the happiest woman alive? what if he told me he wanted to be with me for the rest of our lives. what if he said things i never thought that i would hear? If none of this happened,I probably wouldn’t be this upset. I said “probably”. But i would never know anyway.
I will miss him. I will miss being with him. But if you do not wish to commit and be freaking serious, don’t be with me. Don’t. Nothing will come out of it. Remember “He’s just not that into you”?




P.S: I hope you are happy and I wish nothing but the best for you. I love you, darling.



Luxury Mani nail art
Wednesday, July 21, 2010 5:38 PM
MANI

My All time favourite will definitely be the classic CHANEL design.


So gonna try out one of these designs by Sophy Robons.


Nails played a big part in every girl's life. In someways,it kinda shows what a girl's personality will be like? In my opinion, it shows the sophisticated side of a lady =)
So what you girls think?





Year 2 sem 2 =)
Tuesday, May 11, 2010 11:29 AM
I can't remember the date since my old phone screwed up on me =( Well, it was an impromptus decision to head down to NEW YORK NEW YORK after our lecture =))

Cotton candy craze




Tina!!!!



A really BIG glass OF ROOT BEER...I'm craving for one now....










That was quite a pretty BIG potion of food served...
K box singing session was amazing!!! hahah! We were dancing,jumping, screaming ,singing and video-ing like nobody bloody business! hahaha! Had a terrific time together!!!
P.S-HOW I MISS THE GOOD OLD TIMES TGT GIRLS ..... hahahah!Time really passed, we're in YEAR 3 now =(( BOOHOOO!!!!!












FATE
Sunday, May 9, 2010 11:14 AM
I know words meant nothing that's worth more than a cent. Well, I feel that recent weeks had been like a roller coaster for me, I could no longer carry on like this. Meet me halfway sweet heart, i never ever wish to hurt you like i hurt others before. Even through the thought of you ______ never exist in my mind before , but somehow......I just couldn't follow my head to handle things. I couldn't go any further than this with you for the time being. i'm truly sorry



HIGH! LOW!
Thursday, April 29, 2010 12:21 PM
SCHOOL'S has been such a bitch so far! All my projects and assignments are like piling up since the very first day of school, which just happened to be like last week?? GOSH! YEAR 3 been pretty stressful, Well last year before i can get that DAMN cert and move on with life! HAHAH! Lately,My dad been pressing me to choose which uni I wanna get enroll to after I graduate? Maybe he needs to save a HUGE sum of money for my education fees! Hehe! In the mean time, there's like school's tmr =(((( , after which our class will head down to Pasir Ris for TINGLE'S 21ST! Advance HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY BOY! It had always been great having a classmate like you around! =))


Time check 3.27am , finished my PO&O online assignments. I'm proud of myself ok, since i scored FULL marks on my first attempt for both test ! haha! Anyway I JUST shopped online for MORE clothes!!! Mostly DRESSES! LOVES! Tons of pics to upload! Well I'll be back to this tiny space of mine soon, If I'm able to squeeze sometime out! PICS AND MORE PICS!



Till next, I'm soo excited now, BECAUSE of..............






PS.Beach foam party @ FORT CANNING =) See you there peeps!



Saturday, April 24, 2010 9:04 AM
How could this song shows,HOW i should feel now?


You have a way of coming easily to meAnd when you takeYou take the very best of meSo I start a fight'Cause I need to feel somethingAnd you do what you want'Cause I'm not what you wantedOh, what a shameWhat a rainy ending given to a perfect dayJust walk awayNo use in defending wordsThat you will never sayAnd now that I'm sitting hereThinking it throughI've never been anywhere cold as youYou put walls and paint them all a shade of grayAnd I stood there loving youAnd washed them all awayAnd you come away with a great little storyOf a mess of a dreamerWith the nerve to adore youOh, what a shameWhat a rainy ending given to a perfect dayJust walk awayNo use in defending wordsThat you will never sayAnd now that I'm sitting hereThinking it throughI've never been anywhere cold as youYou never did give a damn thing, honeyBut I cried, cried for youAnd I know you wouldn't have told nobodyIf I died, died for youDied for youOh, what a shameWhat a rainy ending given to a perfect dayJust walk awayOh, every smile you fakeIs so condescendingCounted all the scars you madeAnd now that I'm sitting hereThinking it throughI've never been anywhere cold as you



Never a 1 but starting with a 0 (zero)
7:00 AM

NAIVE? hahhaha! everyone has it's fair share of experience in time. Ranting here calms me down? Well, a bottle of white wine beside me calling me out. I chose to be ALONE. Maybe it will be better...A total let down of plan. I don Blame... There's a pharse saying, the higher you place your hopes , the GREATER you will fall eventually. That's exactly true! Everyone has moved on, i have already moved on, but life can be such a joke that, sometime things will be back to where it was again... Just that you'll be in differnt position now... TRIED? Told myself millions of times NOT to be so vulnerable and (gasp!) wait for his text.


“Because you’re hoping you’re wrong. And every time she does something that tells you she’s no good, you ignore it. And every time she comes through and suprises you, she wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself, that she’s not for you.“
“I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn’t know you had inside you. And it doesn’t matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends… you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he’ll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you’ll go somewhere new. And you’ll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.”



J- Words I Couldn't Say....Least it makes me feels so much better after listening to it for zillion of times .


P.S ___We were both young when I first saw you ,I close my eyes and the flashback starts flowing into my mind. ( happy birthday! )



HAPPY MUGGING TIMES
Sunday, April 11, 2010 12:06 PM
Milfred Reihana Tina Joycelin Adrain.....


JOY.....That's part of my name =))) hahaha!





He barely finished Half his coffee,before my NOTES drank it all in no much time! haah! Coffee notes is sweet and sticky, i swear! haha!

POSE! haha! They were dancing to SHINee {Ring Ding Dong} ....Freaking Hilarious!!



Second love beside the usual Caffeine ....Carrot with apple juice!



I'm stoning and starving while doing maths! as usual, it kills my brain cells =((









I HATE MUGGING, BUT WITH THOSE GUYS , MUGGING ROCKS BIG TIME !



Meant
Friday, March 19, 2010 9:30 AM
TSAP I'm just like that ducky up in that pic.Nothing seems right now, even IF I've tried to make it back to the right track. HIGH UP above.We could soar if we were still the same. Missing you out of my life someday could caused so much pain in our life. Through you I finally understand the meaning of LIFE.
IF you could see the beauty of this world, it might have gave you the strength to press on.

DEAD DRUNK? NUMBED? Closed my eyes before everything in my life collapse once again. That's a life cycle, I could say.


I'm craving for these Korean strawberry right now!!! ARGH!






Aren't he super duper CUTE?Awww! I missed him! Time passes so fast! He was still a baby, sleeping soundly in his own pram when his parents used to have their dinner over at CJ. Now he could speak some simple phase and even run!!! I would be proud if i have such an adorable kid in the future. JOY of having it's own...
School's starting soon in a few weeks! Time passes!My mum just broke my train of thoughts just now, with her holding a tug of ben and jerry ice -cream! haha! well peeps, i'm heading off with my ice cream to catch GOSSIP GIRLS! X.O.X.O
You know you love me, X.O.X.O gossip girls !







Baby J
Tuesday, March 16, 2010 9:41 AM
Today's Baby J last day after 8 years of working! I LOVE HER TO THE MAX =) well i'm gonna miss her seriously...I love my BFF ms AW too... She took alll my sarcasm toward her today.. well i was just joking love! hahha! she's soo understanding. Perharp only my BFF could stand all my NONSENSE =)





I promise i'll upload all those pics once i have the time!!!!



FACT
Monday, March 15, 2010 9:36 AM
Steamed egg... It was all about... Somehow it just remind me of ...



One thing that i know, is that together, WE SMILE =)



what now?
Sunday, March 14, 2010 11:15 AM
Life's been really hectic for me...so for the time being ,this little space of mine will be left unattended =( I'll find a day to force myself to update all those pics =)) I met ADAM today! He's freaking CUTE and HOT =) Love him =)



WAITING
Friday, February 19, 2010 5:38 AM
Pondering....
I've so much in my mind after the movie, it was totally great! Love Taylor swift =))

This space of mine have been left unattended for months? Ha! Well I was too busy with school and personal stuff ever since year 2 sem 2 started =( Now I'm back for more updates I guess, since my holidays are knocking on my door pretty sooon! Not much into CNY mood this year...So.. forget about it.


There's soo many things left for me to do now! I've yet to start on my revision =( Anw just registered my driving today! can't wait to get my license daddy! HMPH! daddy forgot about the promises he made to me! BUT i shall forgive him since he has been such a sweet and nice dad despite having such a naughty baby girl like me! He's always getting worried abt me all the while, which makes me feels really bad sometime!


POWERHOUSE has been a BLAST last night i swear! It's FREAKING PACKED! LOVE DJ KZEE =) Alot have been through my mind yesterday! Thanks to the alcohol, music and dance that helped me unwind abit and forget about all my problems TEMPORARILY. Can't believe I'm blogging right now after i just got home form club half an hour ago! I really need to get some rest, eye bags coming out soon!






P.S I've so much to tell you. PLEASE DON'T BE GOOD TO ME.




Clique outing =)
Tuesday, October 13, 2009 10:36 AM
BUGIS =)

Hey piggy piggy!
everybody looked soo seriously,becos of our dear MARCUS! He's damn pissed at he very moment while we're going to have my daily sweet treats =))








I was lost in their conversation! hahah! Can't blame me while I'm busy enjoying my Ben and Jerry


YUMMY! This should be happiness =)




PURE BLISS!


Well the spicy soup base nearly killed me!





Marcus marcus marcus!






I LOVE HER TO THE M.A.X (BFF)












WARNING!



What's with your face M?
Deep in his own thoughts! haha!



Went over to Bugis with K,HS,DY AND M =) I did my shopping while waiting for M to rush over from school =) The rest of them spent like nearly an hour with me at C&K while i shop for heels and bags =)) Brought a total of 2 bags and a black heels! haha! spent a bomb too! thanks to dy for helping me to carry the two big bags of carrier around. haha! Head over to have our dinner at CJ steamboat! K couldn't join us for the steamboat as her teeth hurt after her dental appointment ytd? So she just ordered porridge as she need not need to chew on it. after dinner we settle for some BEN and JERRY at CATHAY before catching sorority row hahha! They were bad enough to scare the hell shit out of me during certain scary climate part during the movie! every time they does that i had goosebumps and my heart seems like it's popping out of it;s tiny place soon! I covered my eyes most of the time. Those who have catch scary movie with me before should know what i meant earlier on hha! My reflex action hahha!